Simple wishes

I had never aspired for something so unattainable in my life. My wishes are simple and the most important one is to give my children something I didn't have, a family. Like most young women in love, I thought I had chosen well. Married the man whom I thought had loved me as much as I loved him. We began that way and eventually he drifted with me not having a slightest clue he was. Out of the blue he met someone new, someone he said reminded him of me and he fell in love. He didn't know how it happened just that it did. So here I am with shuttered dreams but I would not let it destroy me. He made his choice and I'm to move on. I was devastated to say the least but had slowly woken up to reality. Life is never perfect, it wasn't meant to be. But we just have to make the most of what life had served us. So here I am waiting for this pain to pass, the cloudiness of my present to clear, for the wound to close and for the scar to remain as a reminder. The lessons we learned will set us free, a friend said. I was happily married to a man whom I thought was filled with integrity, with whom I looked up to. Now he's a shell of the person I used to know. Could I truly trust him again? Idk, time will tell how his selfish decision affected me, our children, our lives. Selfishness, pride, lust - when chosen only leads to sin. When we chose to sin, it's not only ourselves who suffer but also those whom we love.