Life

Life as we know it.

The tragedy in Boston begs a question , Where is respect for people, for life, for anything? Our world today is filled with chaos, personal and social tragedy. Everyday the news is filled with hatred and less and less of good deeds are reported. I worry for my kids but I will not let terror change the way I raise them. 

Respect - a positive feeling of esteem toward another, compassion, a feeling that fills the gap where love should be. I strive to raise my kids to respect others and to do what is right. To go beyond what is expected and to give back to their community. Recent events are hard to explain to a 6 yr old. 

I'm just glad that things are moving again in Boston. It was so eerie looking at those empty streets in Watertown, to be trapped in your home while a madman is on the loose, seeing faces gazing out their windows and residents talking to Dianne Sawyer just to have a connection with the rest of the world. And there's me glued to the TV and all social network available to me watching this "movie" unfold while my laundry and other household chores awaits. 

Yes, life goes on. We face tragedy with courage and strength so we can pick up the pieces and move on with our lives. I remind myself often that there are far more important things in life than to dwell with the stupidity of a few people. They may cause a tremendous havoc in my life but in the end, its my life. I no longer try to understand why things happen and just accept that it does, I no longer waste my time to things that are out of my control but rather concentrate to do better for things that are, to not dwell on what was but instead to look ahead on whats to become, to see my glass half full not half empty and to fill my life with satisfaction rather than just making do. 

Respect, a lot of people want and demand it from others yet they themselves don't know how to give it. We tend to justify ourselves after making the wrong choices because its hard to accept that we are at fault, that we made a mistake. The truth is everyone makes mistakes, its what we do after we realized a mistake that makes a difference, that shows who we are and what we are made of. 

Pride is the other thing that brings down everyone. St Augustine once said : It was pride that changed angels into devils; it is humility that makes men as angels. Its in our nature to want it all, that more is better. We're thirsty for more and make choices to satisfy that only to realized it leaves us craving for more. That we are never satisfied until we experience being without, until we experience something that makes us reevaluate our lives. 

This past year had been a revelation to me, a time to change for the better I hope. I evaluated my life and made recompense with my self. For so long I had forgotten who I was, given all I had to someone whom I thought had loved me as I love him, given him loyalty and respect without question only to be betrayed. I am still reeling from that pain but am getting better. Everyday is better than yesterday and I no longer dwell at the pain I still feel but focuses on the lesson the betrayal had taught me.